미안 해...

I still remember the very first day... I used to not like u. I used to find u bossy and irritating :l But somehow like how all love stories goes, the "not like" slowly slowly became an "interested" followed by a "like" Maybe in the beginning I was not clear with myself but everything became cleared to me on 27 April. Somehow it was u who first told me :l Its almost 2 years after that day le, My "like" have not changed... In fact, it have only grown stronger... When I first entered army on 1 April 2014, I was still crazy over u :p I can still remember clearly what I said to u when I was in camp that 1 night during my first week in camp around a year ago... I told u after my 5 years I am going to do something. I wonder if u still remember what it is? Soon, things started to change. We started talking lesser. There seems to be a gap between us... I never knew what happened, it just suddenly happened... Time to time I would still open "Between" to see if u updated anything there. Till now I actually still do it sometimes haha :p Slowly I understand what was the gap all about. U were not meant to like me. Things would have gone crazy for u... However, things recently became better between us again. We started talking like how we used too again. I can tell, I can feel right from the beginning that u still have feelings for me... As for me, I feelings for u have never died down. I was just able to control it and not be crazy over it like last time. But I know things still remain the same. U are still afraid of having feelings for me again... But I was engulfed by my feelings and I let it happened again... I thought maybe I could be able to handle it but apparently I was afraid... I still love u but I was afraid of not being able to give u my 100%... I'm sorry but I dun think I should let u continue... I hate to see at the end of the day u being more hurt... like the saying goes "长痛不如短痛" Sorry for pushing u away like this... I guess its like what some of my bunk mates say haha the problem lies in me :) Please take care of yourself properly okie :) Remember not to skip your meals too okie? And 1 last thing: forget about me I'm not worth it :)