I dunno...

Alot of things have been happening recently... being treated like trash... the name callings... the mixed feelings... the feeling of missing someone but controlling not to ruin relationships.. I can't do anything but smile on the outside while inside stings really badly... Watching funny videos didn't stop the tears... Blasting music didn't stop the mind... All I can do is let the tears flow till they're dry... 我累了, 我真的很累了... I tired of putting in effort only to be treated like I wasn't... I know I must stay strong... I know I must endure but I dunno will I be able to do it... I dun trust myself.... The soul in me telling me to never give up is slowly fading away... I'm afraid the time will come where I'll just give up on myself...